Saturday, January 8th, 2011
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12:19 pm - A new year a new me?
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Well another year has come and gone. Some good some bad happened last year, most I wouldn't change. We moved, started a business, got a ticket cause I trusted my ex, and I closed my business.
The holidays brought some things to light I was never told about my family, like my aunt is my champion on my father's side. She stood up for me and my life choices but she also thinks I am just letting life happen and worries that I won't do anything with it. Which has been true mostly. I lost what I thought was my career for the rest of my life and I got lost. I still am to be honest. She wants me go actually go to school but I am worried I can't cut it. Don't know how to pay for it or if I can even do the work that is needed to finish.
I also found out that my father was found to have asperger's which I have thought that I might very well have. It caused me to keep to myself and not talk about how I feel and what is going on. I would worry that I would come across and silly, stupid or just plain weird. Which I now know is what happens to many children raised by asperger parents. They don't know how to teach social skills, or self esteem and makes it that much harder to be a normal and happy person. Even knowing that what I feel isn't my fault I still want to delete everything I wrote just so I don't bother anyone with it. Or that no one cares and why bother with trying to write anything like this down. I am working daily to accpect that I am a talented person and people would like to see more of it instead of hiding away and waiting for nothing to happen. I want to start sharing without the need to have someone tell me that I should, which I don't have so I don't share anything with anyone.
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Wednesday, May 12th, 2010
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10:44 am - 2 weeks till rentfest!
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The clock is ticking for our spring trip to faire and we need new costumes stat! I have 1 pirate coat, 2 corsets, 2 ladies undershirts, 1 bloomer and 3 pirate hats to make. That is only the basic pieces and I would love to add more to the 3 costume set I am making but only time will tell if I get to or not. I think 2 weeks is enough for all of this and more if I keep my ass in gear and don't piddle around. I am not known for my costumes being anything then last hour and I have been working very hard to break that stressful habit. Yes yes I know the whole works better under stress thing but I am starting to think that is just a cop out. And on that note I need to get to cutting patterns and picking fabric.
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Wednesday, April 7th, 2010
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10:19 pm - Poor little piggies!
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My feet have been killing me for the last week. I am pretty sure it is from wearing heels that are at least a size to big for me. Its a bad habit to wear shoes that are to big so I don't have to break them in. I think it might be time to see about getting a pedi just for the foot rub!
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Monday, March 29th, 2010
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4:35 pm - sherwood forset!
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Going to the new renfest this weekend, Sherwood Forset! I went back in the fall for talk like a pirate weekend, it was still being worked on and I can't wait to see how it looks now. I want to make a new costume for it mostly cause it feels like time to make a fancy new costume. Now I just have to figure out if it should be a Fae or pirate!
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Thursday, March 25th, 2010
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6:26 pm - Doors about to open
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I am opening the doors to my online vintage resale shop this week.
This has been in the works for over a year and just knowing this is really going to happen has me a little freaked out. I have had so many irons in the fire for so long that having one ready is starling. I have been thinking alot about what failing is. I worried that I would fail if I opened this resale vintage thing, but what is failure? Say I do this for the next 5 years, and then move to something else. Is that being a failure? Or just that I am doing something I think of as a dream a success. Guess only time will tell.
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Thursday, March 18th, 2010
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9:09 pm - one year later
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Just put on a dress I bought about this time last year, then it was almost to big to buy and now it would be almost to tight to buy.... bah!
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Saturday, February 27th, 2010
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12:01 am - date night
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Went out on a lovely date night with the Skoogy, sushi and Wolfman. Sushi was excellent and I am already craving more, seeing as I didn't really eat a large range of food last year this time I kind of can't believe it. Wolfman was how I always saw classic lit in my head and I really hope that more movies get made like this one. I know this one will go in the collection and be a regular watch. This last year has a been a huge year of change even if not all the changes were easy or fun. Every change made this year has done nothing but helped me find myself and grow as a grow up. I have lost people I felt as close to as I thought I could be to, while it hurt and I am still not sure just what happened I will go on and I will survive.
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Sunday, December 27th, 2009
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10:29 pm - Gooing for a car ride
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Spent the day running around in Skoog's new car! I didn't have to drive at all! The only down side is that we both go sunburned since it was midday and we didn't think of sunscreen. My eyeballs feel burned! Still didn't have to drive so it was worth it. Spent all of yesterday making a new dress with cowgirls printed all over it just to find I have no zippers longer then 12 inches, which means the dress is sitting undone. Tomorrow I hope to get out and get the zipper and maybe a few more to just be stocked up.
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Tuesday, November 10th, 2009
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3:47 pm - Studio stuffs
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I have tons of work but the list of stuff that needs doing in the sewing studio is now to the point where I can't ignore it any more. I have to move all the books and mags from the crappy old bookshelf to the new shelf in the studio and out in the living room, need to rework all the craft draws that hold everything from riibbon to heat gun, hanging all the everyday clothing I am keeping, move the costumes to their new home, and clean off my cutting/sewing table. ... Basically I need to do a full top to bottom clean and put away. I pray I can get it done tonight so I can get back to work on orders and new winter clothes for myself!
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Monday, November 2nd, 2009
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2:32 pm - sewing list for today
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Todays sewing list seems to be about a mile long but some of it is payed which is good. I have 2 pairs of leggings to make, 1 pair to finish, replace buttons on a dark teal shirt dress, orphan costume sample for Anne to make, and maybe a new skirt out of the 6 yards of black and white stripe. I hope to get atleast the leggings and sample done today before Skoog is off work tonight.
In other news I got the new zombie/star wars book Death Troopers the day it came out a couple weeks ago and finished it the next day. I would say if you had taken the Star Warsness out of it would have still been a good read. It wouldn't say it was anything to surpising but it was well written and very fun to read. I know it will be a regular read for me, not as often picked up as World War Z but close. I already have 3 people wanting to borrow it to read it so I would suggest any one who thinks they might like it to go out and pick it up.
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Tuesday, October 13th, 2009
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10:00 pm - Skinny jeans!
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I haven't worn jeans in months. Really the last time I can remember was in early May. It seemed cool enough and I didn't want to get a dress dusty with running around and cleaning so jeans it was. I pull my almost skinny girl jeans expecting they wouldn't work and I would be upset about it all day. See I put on weight, alot. Like 20 lbs since I wore these jeans. I pull on my skinny jeans and wouldn't ya know?!! THEY FIT! In fact I might even say they are a touch big in the waist but not the butt area. I now can't wait to keep going to the gym, I had almost lost faith in getting back into some kind of shape.
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Wednesday, October 7th, 2009
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6:47 pm - Making time
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About 6 weeks ago I thought I had gotten my dream job. Working for a huge costume house doing their sewing, my dream job really. I love costumes and I love to sew. Two weeks into the job things went down hill. I was be questioned as to being able to do my job 2 to 3 times a day. People were being fired for no real reason all around me. Finally have a couple more weeks they let as many as were left go and said they would call who they wanted back. I never got a call back. I wasn't sad for the let go, I was sad to not being sewing for money again. I kinda got into a major funk of not caring about work or even finding a job this last month. I let myself relax and get over the job thing. I feel dumb for not trying to find something sooner but I also know that if I had pushed myself I would have been very unhappy with whatever I got. I finally feel ready to put 100 percent into anything I can find now. I know that I have dragged my feet about this job thing but I know what I get next will mean so much to me. So if you have any leads I am ready to bust butt to find something and to keep said job!
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Tuesday, August 25th, 2009
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1:35 pm - What I have been up to....
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I have been working on starting my own line of girdles that will be in a full size range and for custom sizes. I have two made up with 6 more designs to come.
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Saturday, August 15th, 2009
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7:21 pm - Poker face
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Tuesday, July 28th, 2009
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10:40 am - Didn't get the job.... I think...
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I applied for the perfect job almost 3 weeks ago. It was with UT doing costume work. It is my dream job, the job that would keep me happy for the rest of my life. My hands were made to sew and make costumes but as it stands the posting is up but you can't see it from the main site and I haven't heard a peep about if I am even being looked at for the job. I want to send a message asking but would hate to be a pest. I just can't decide if it has been long enough and with the posting not up means I didn't get and should get over wanting the job or if I should keep hope alive, and send a message asking where I stand. I really would be so happy if I got this job. It is hard to apply for other jobs when all I think about is this one. BAH!
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Tuesday, July 14th, 2009
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11:53 am - New man!
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Sunday, June 7th, 2009
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4:17 pm - packing
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i hate to pack... it sucks even more when you are packing all alone and have to think if someone else is gonna miss what you are packing... I need a packing coach, someone to keep me moving and not get depressed or discouraged. Also how is it I own like 50 pairs of shoes? Really? What was I thinking?!?!
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Friday, May 29th, 2009
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9:49 am - jobs?
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I need a job badly! I have been looking everyday for months with no luck. Anyone out there have any leads they would be willing to share? Please!!!! Pretty please! I'll buy you lunch!
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Sunday, May 10th, 2009
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10:34 am - new hair
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Monday, April 20th, 2009
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12:58 am - hair cut?
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kinda thinking of getting my hair cut to mid neck length. I have had long hair for almost 10 years now and just don't know if it is a good idea. Now would be the time to do what with summer coming up and all. What do you guys think? Does Rainey need short hair or would i hate myself if I did it?
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